Pole and lap dance..

Lap and pole dance is the dance that i love most.
It helps me to explore my sexuality and the soft side of myself.
Time and patience helps me to create new move on the dance.
It helps me to relieve my stress and tension at work after a long day at work.
Something that i'll look forward everyday.

The strength

Encouragement from colleagues,immediate superior and bosses helps me the days through from the stressful days and weeks of planning .
The event has finally come to an end.
Preparation and weeks of hard work has finally paid off.
Immediate superior and bosses was impressed.
Despite it is the first time for this company.
Time and patience has proven my own hidden abilities.

Dedication goes to...

"Weirdos"(your encouragement is still inside my mind till today.)

"Bao sua bao hai man" (Your encouragement helps me through the difficult times..Love the birthday pressie.. Love ya tonnes!! **muacks!**)

Bobby (the one who discover my talents from a lunch trip at old market and my "godfather" often remind me not to stay up too late for the event planning and reminds me to eat my meals properly.)

Karen (the HR, helps me to blend in the culture and my "elder sister")

Joey(the "little sister" who helped me from calling, getting quotations, share my work load and act as a secretary for the team...Love u tonnes!!!)

P/S:But i still prefer tic tac and gummies than fisherman's friend..

Kaixin (The "talking dirty partner", "Freelance almost smooching partner" and advisor for the event)

Mosquitoe (The bro who often i shared my foods and woes with)

Nikki (helps me the list of songs to play thru out the event and the creative side.)

Curtis (My immediate boss aka "my government" who employed me..though i've still got the shock till today..cos the interview last for 30mins..and within 1 hour i knew i was employed by you.)

Last but not all it goes to those who have been reading my blog and surfgolder!

Sometimes..

Reminicise is something enjoyable yet addictive.
Sometimes it brings you joy.
Sometimes it brings you pain.
Sometimes it brings hurt to yourself unknowingly.
Sometimes it's brings you back to the past.
Sometimes you just wish the time just stop there.
But time don't await for you.

The promise...

You promise that you are not gonna hurt me.
But you did.
You promise that you gonna work something out.
But you didnt.
I'll put in alot of trust on you.
But you failed me.
But i did not regret since the day we've met.

Time and fate

Lost in control of emotions.
Stare at the blank space.
Stuck in the dimension with lots of confusion.
Everyday wish and hope that you will pop by.
It never seems to happen.
Just pray for god that he will arrange us to meet again.

The courage

I do not have the courage to love or be in love again.
My mind can't stop thinking of you.
Your image just pop by and confuse me.
The image of you, just make me take a step back away from everyone except you.
cos you got the key of my heart.

The isolated side

I'll kept myself isolated from everybody.
Free from disturbance and disruption.
Free my mind and enjoy the quiet moments.
I thought about you out of sudden.
Been counting the days, since you'll gone.
Time just past by each minutes and seconds.
Wishing those were the happy times never ends.

This year..

24th birthday is something i do not look forward this year.
Gifts from friends, ex colleagues and colleague touched my heart.
Birthday greetings from friends does cheer me up.
Birthday wishes for this year is something i'll rather not to think or talk about it.
Coz it hurts.
It really hurts.

What is love to me?

Love hurts.
Love cuts and hurt me deeply.
Cry myself each night to sleep.
Unable to control my emotions well at times.
Drown myself with a few glasses of alcohol every night.
Try to immune the pain with alcohol as i drink along.
The tears helps me to get by the long lonely night.
The night seems long and hard to get by each night.

Life is like a drama episode

Images of you, make me step into the memory lane.
The drama seems hard for me to accept the facts, that its breaks me down till today.
Whenever i happened to think about it.
Can't stop thinking of you.
You did make a big significant difference when you are with me those days.
My life seems like a mess after you left me.

Space.. and........ time

Time and space is the only thing i want right now.
Enjoy the silence with the music spinning.
The space give me the moment to create something different,
Something that i used to enjoy alot.
The time and space will help me to prove my abilites.

The side of a person

She hopped around with the camera on the hand.
Taking shots for objects and scenary that reflect on her pesonalities.
Though she looks happy in the outside and inside.
But she is a different person, when you get to know her inside out.

The preparation

Quotations, Planning ,Games, Date, Theme, Time & Venue.
The questions finally answered.
Waiting for the time to reveal the another side of myself.
The wait seems long.
Patience is the key of the proper planning.

4am in the morning

Took this picture 4am in the morning. The lyrics is like a reflection of me now.


Title: 4am in the morning
Artist: Gwen Stefani

Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright


But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
& all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]

I give you everything that

I am I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me


[CHORUS]
I give you everything that
I am I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right


All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me


[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right


(Give you everything)

(Give you all of me)

No one

It's just feels like me now.

From: Alicia Keys
Title: No one

I Just Want you Close
Where You Can Stay Forever
You Can Be Sure
That It Will Only Get Better

Hook:]
You And Me Together
Through The Days And Nights
I Dont Worry Cause
Everything's Gonna Be Alright
People Keep Talking
They Can Say What They Like
But All I Know Is That Everything's Gonna Be Alright

[Chorus:]
No One
No One
No One
Can Get In The Way Of What I'm Feelin'
No One
No One
No One Can Get In The Way Of What I Feel For You
You You
Get In The Way Of What I Feel For You

When The Rain Is Pourin Down
And My Heart Is Hurting
You Will Always Be Around
This I Know For Certain

[Hook:]
You And Me Together Through The Days And Nights
I Don't Worry Cause
Everything's Gonna Be Alright
People Keep Talking
They Can Say What They Like
But All I Know Is Everything Is Gonna Be Alright

[Chorus:]
No One
No One
No One Can Get In The Way Of What I'm Feelin
'No One
No One
No One Can Get In The Way Of What I Feel For You
You You
Can Get In The Way Of What I Feel For U

I Know
Some People Search The World
To Find
Something Like What We Have
I Know
People Will Try, Try To Divide Something
So Real
So Till The End Of Time
I'm Telling You That No One

No One
No One
Can Get In The Way Of What I'm Feelin
'No One
No One
No One Can Get In The Way Of What I Feel For You

Oooh
Ooh
Oh Oh Oh

Lust sells?

The lust sells.
Temptation and desire is the root of evil.
Traps and leads you.
Thus, there is no turning back.

No one knows...

I'll feel the cut.
Heart broken, feel the blood flows like a river.
Tears broke down, as i'll past the memory lane.
The days are numbered .
No one getting the way or feel the way that feel for him..

Time, encouragement and patience

Time and patience helps me to prove my abilities.
Thee time has unfold the surprises with the help and encouragement from team.
The encouragement does helps to pull me up when i am upset.
Everybody was saying life is easy for me.
In fact, life is never easy for me.

Appearance

Your appearance create a chaos in my life.
Never blame you for anything.
Silently time just past.
You've made me realise how important you are till today.
The blurry image, somehow cast a shadow of myself.
Unable to forget you till today.
Memories left just like a scar.

Red and white

The red and white wine.
Remind me of you.
Sip and swirl the wine glass.
The image of you just appear out of nowhere.
I'll find it hard to forget you.

For the one

You whine and complain life is stale and boring.
Cried for hours.
Advise given to you.
You don't take it seriously.
Life is short, fight for your happiness.