My life

Life is hectic and busy everyday.
Life is like an time bomb.
Panic and full of surprises come along the way.
When dusk breaks.
Life of a social chick rock her world with music, cigarettes and alcohol.
When the night comes, loneliness breaks in.
Life is never the same again...

Comfort cry

Where are you?
The question i'll ask myself every night.
The warm smile and comfort hug are gone.
Tears flows when memories flash back.
Comfort myself that i am alright after the cry.
Heartache and force myself to smile through the day and night.

Move to a new dimension

Loneliness breaks in.
Tears of loneliness and despair start rolling.
Emotions hidden deep inside me.
Expressing myself through tears.
Immune of all the emotions pain and hurt.
Life moves on to a new dimension with a sense of new directions.

The moment of lonely time

Lunatic is a description of myself now.
Enter the deep emotion.
Hiding the emotions from all sort of situations that cause grievous hurt.
Lots of emotional and psychological hurt i'll experience is hiding deep down inside me.
Feelings untold and unknown to others.
Drive to keep myself immune to all the pain and sadness for the moment of lonely time.

The lie

The day i'll found out that you lied to me.
I'll stood in a corner, feeling lost and depressed.
My mind keep popping questions non stop.
Unable to control my emotions.
I'll smile to myself and pretend nothing is happening.
Deep inside me, my heart cracked and bled profusely.
Your existence brings me joy, laughter and love.

For the late comedians

TV shows and movies with you as a lead actor and actress.
Brings lots of attention and support from fan just like me.
Your attention brings lots of attention and happiness from all walk of life.
Never fails to make everyone laugh at your show.
You left us with a heart feeling heavy and sad.


Dedicate to those who love MC king and Lydia.

Motivation and encouragement

You cheer me up when i'm down.
I'll cheer you up when you've had a bad day.
Short text messages from you does the trick back then.
Your encouragement and motivation is still inside me all along.
Never give up hope, even though it is small.
Small hope helps to brighten up my life abit till today.
Motivation is something you bring it back.
When emotions tortured and abused back then.
Your encouragement and motivation helps me to pick up myself once again.

Mistakes

A quick flash back of the past.
Felt a sudden rush of anger and sadness.
Impulsive and stubborn due to young age.

Questions asked all over again.

Mistakes that i've created and mess it all up.

Lessons learnt and remeber well from the past incidents till today.

Love confession

Time shared with you alone turns to good old memories.
Memories is sweet and will buried deep inside my heart.
Too deep that i told you a lie that i'll treat you like a next kin.
The kisses and hugs is something i am looking forward till today.
Questions popped out, whenever i think of you.
Pray for you every night and hope you are doing well.
I didn't know till a pastor told me i'll have fell in love with you unknowingly.
Let the time past by and see if my feelings for you if it is genuine or just a crush.
Life is never the same since you'll gone.

Life is

Life is short.
Life is full of events and interesting lessons to be learnt.
Lessons learnt is something worth looking at it to avoid mistakes in your life again.
Once seen as a passerby for all problems from all walks of life.
Now it is happening to me.
Time to grown up and be hip and happy.

Time

Too much and it is better to left unsaid.
Let thee time cleanses the soul and purify the mind of the unspoken words.
Thee time will just makes one another wiser.
Time heals everything.

I'll still love you till today

St valentine's day is the day everyone who is in love is looking forward to.
Hoping the time you will call or text me for a date.
Knew it will not happen to me.
But my heart just stand still and waiting for your return.
The last conversation and your voice does tempt me to drop you a line.
Afraid to see or heard you get pissed drop the whole idea of drop you a line.
You are not a passer by in my life.
Told you'll before, though what you said and done hurt me alot.
I forgave and understand the plight you are going through now.
I' ll do miss you alot and love you alot till today.

Song reminds me of you.

The song titled "Hip hop is dead" is play on my media player now.
The song once i'll told you about back then.
Does reminds me lots of good and sweet live of the memories.
It's certainly worth looking back and take a smile about how the time we spent together back then.
The time of stop contacting each other makes me miss me even more.
The time makes me want to turn back the clock and undo the past.
Hoping and pray for the return.

Waiting

My heart and soul yearns for your love.
Thee time past by very slowly that i've want to give up hope on you.
The determination, stubborness and perserverance in me.
Makes me not to give up on you till today.
The loneliness deep inside me, yearning for your company and love.
Unable to do much till today.
Let the time past by.
Hoping you will call or text me again.

Food

Foods looks nice and taste great to everyone.
Food is our main source nutrients and provide us energy.
Delicacy during this period of time is being serve to family, relatives and friends.
Loss the sense of taste and appetite.
The phobia of food start acting up.
Memories of me suffering from eating disorder just pop into my mind.
The smell, look and taste of the food just makes me want to throw up.
I am phobia of food now.

Destination unknown

Head off to a place where it is peaceful and quiet.

Enter the dark secret of my own world.

Reach the destination unknown by me.
Unable to communicate my feelings through anything.
Words, photography and dance just can't express it out.
Feelings just make me confused and upset.
The destination of unknown bought me to the state of complexity.

The game

Fate is a game.
The game that may test your luck and surprise you with something.
Time is a factor for this game.
The game that test your luck and patience with lots of endurance in your heart and mind.
The game of fate and time is a test for me.
Waiting and expecting something i'll been wishing for.
Praying hard for the day to arrive.
Let the fate and prayer to be answer when the time comes.

Time heals

I want to be left alone and enjoy the peaceful life.
Your existence has proven that you are a pest now!
Irritating with lots of nonsense that i can't handle you now!
Calls and text messages from you just wanna make me dump the damn phone away.
Explanation of break up and the reasons is made loud and clear to you.
Understand that you are not coping well now.
Let thee time past and let thee time heals the pain.

Love fade to dust

Life is great without being control.
Restriction of life is in my control now.
Those days of being controlled and monitoring my movements is crazy.
Never enjoy the quality of life ever since you drop by nearly three years.
Life is boring and stale with no common interest among each other.
Time and fate has proven that we are not right for each other.
Let thee time past.
Free yourself and let the love for me fade to dust.

Notes of emotion

While doing spring cleaning the room to usher the new lunar year.
A notebook was found in the book shelf.
Flipping through the notebook.
I'll read the content of the notebook.
Tears flow and memories of the past flash back.
The notebook contains lots of good memories of the past.
The notebook is something i will keep it safe and sound.
Waiting for someone to claims the "Notes of emotions" back.

Reborn

The days of being controlled is totally over.
Looking forward in life now.
Enjoy the life of being single.

Enjoying the bits and pieces of my life and hobbies once again.

Time pass by every bits with the new excitment and challenge coming along the way.

The challenge never fails to make me look at things in a positive manner.

Excitement comes along to fill the emptiness of the soul in me.

The good old time

The old song brings back the good old time.
Brings back the happy moment.
Joy and laughter being shared with one another.
Limited food that did dampened the mood for craving at that point of time.
The miracle of great company of someone who is special.
It made the food taste delicious and a unique experience to be remeber.